Things are Sometimes Hidden

[Jami Futter]

Jami has a bottle of wine in her suitcase and something else she wont tell anyone else what it is though.

In jami's draws she has a whole one full of batteries, one for evening clothes, one for everyday things. one full of tools and scrap metal, and finally one for her random stuff.

Also under her bed along with her suit case is her shiny box that she made in rendaz's class room and that luppa stole.

some where under jami's bed is her torn and bloody purple dress from the fireworks.

(will update if she hide more things)

[Jami Futter]

Jami has a diary...im not saying where!((jami's grammar is just as bad as mine))

most recent entry:

So i have made some new friends. I also have made an enemy. Not much I could have done there. Shouldnt have hit him, he is kind of hot... But i hate him >: ( Owen on the other hand... I haven't felt the way I do around him this strong with anyone else, not even that b*****d Henry. He never loved me. Probably just thought I was a pretty face. I looked in the mirror again recently. I look like a thin teenage girl and my bones dont show. I hate being 95 punds though, ino it is because of my internal make up but i still cant help feeling annarexic... It bothers me all the time. So far I have only had two emotional break downs. so far so good. My demon almost escaped and i had let her out once as well, but itwas quick to show my friend Xena.

Fional review so far, my life now is going well. hope it keeps up.

love Jami

[Jami Futter]

Poem found in her diary:

so i was bored and randomly wrote this thing,

sadness consumes me and i lay down my head, the light was getting dim and the spell that once held me in a trance broke, i am now what i once was, but it is hard to see what it is for i am a nothing

sounded deep so I guess it's good....

[Jami Futter]

diary post:

so i believe i have sorted it all out now. My demon. She was born with me. We are like twins or something inside each other. But it only happened b/c someone in my fathers family meddled with a demon creating this mixed bloodline. it is hard to explain but It seems to be what happend. I just hope i dont turn out the same as my father. I will continue to be strong, for him.

[Jami Futter]

Diary:

telling someone you like that you like them is hard, it makes it easier to turn you down when they say ur their best friend though. At least that's what I believed happened. They kept us in there to long. ill just but a friend for now, its all i ever had hopes for coming here anyway other then education, and a place to stay. I never expected to exactly fall for someone, but when i was flying so high up i defiantly have started falling. Things just happen that why I guess.

I have been feeling a little worried recently. I dont want to do anything because i know it is stupid, but thosse bad thoughts are coming back. Maybe being rejected for the first time didn't help, and the fact that a few people here don't like me at all...

[Jami Futter]

newest addition to jami's room, some candy,

Diary:

Lessons are starting. I better get to doing my hw as soon as i get it. I don't like failing. It shows weakness. Lets see what i can do...

[Jami Futter]

Diary:

F-ather
A-lways
T-hought
H-e
E-
R-

I have trouble finishing this poem... I don't really care enough to anyway...

[Jami Futter]

New item: Emerald, Gold Amulet but she will be wearing it alot

[Jami Futter]

Diary:

So i had a weird dream. My friends and enemy's here were in it.
I was out with amunet, onizo and lunie playing fetch when Leon came from the sky and kidnapped Lunie. Then All the teachers went on a Lunie hunt so the school was unsupervised. Ms. Everly for some reason was hiding in her closet. Then!!!!!! Ndale and a bunch of the guys decided to go the the dinning hall for who knows what. Owen appeared from the ground in front of me and we ran off into the sun set...

it was weird....

[Jami Futter]

Diary:

Um, so ive decided few things in my life. I don't think i am who i think i have been. Yes im caring and over protective. But maybe the reason im so bi-polar is because, i was lost. From now on, i am going to bebetter. The real me is figuring her self out. I was only so emotional and angery, because I thought thats what you had to do to get through my shitty life. But now I am here. I don't need todo that anymore. Im safe, and im happy. Yes i have a person i very dislike *cough leon cough* but everyone has a bully. I have to just be the better person. I wonder if ill suprise everyone with the new me. They may not notice at first, but theyll see my small changes. I have to say i don't even know whats going to happen. Just that something will happen.

Im going on a trip soon, im going to write a letter to my mother.

From your little faerie

[Jami Futter]

Diary:

Why are men so complicated. There's the clueless nice ones who you fall for and the evil flirtatious ones who are out to get you! Gah! And of course Im the one dealing with this! I feel weird bring my new self because in a way j found it isn't to different, now it's settling in I have come to realize that I'm mostly just to be just less emotional. So much for a new big feeling, then again it is a big step for me, maybe this soon to be 17 year olds finally growing up.

[Jami Futter]

Diary:

i had the most wonderful dream. Owen and I were on a beach His foot was better and we were just smiling and holding hands. He wasn't all awkward and we were just happy. I woke up just after he had pulled me in for a kiss. Meh! Why must good dreams end!

[Jami Futter]

Diary:

im calling my demon, Petunia, dont ask.

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Diary:

so far the field trips mix emotions nothing new. Met a guy named ace and he was a good kisser, idk how owen and i are, i think we are both upset with eachother, i dont like it. Maybe i should go stay with mother next break if they let me, both aalc and my village... i need another drink

[Jami Futter]

hidden item: The locket is in her suitcase

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Jami redecorated! she got ride of her beds and made her own, added a work bench and rug

[Jami Futter]

Diary:

Dear Owen,

I feel so lost sometimes. I wish you could hold me and say it'll be okay, but I'm not sure you would know what to do. I'm depressed and I don't know how to deal with it. I love you, but my mind is in a constant battle of if I should stay or go. I now you've heard me say something about leaving before...

I never told you but, I hallucinate. You know I have emotion issues. I was hoping they'd calm down. Maybe I should wait some time longer. I also have been thinking. You don't get why I love you, but why do you love me? I'm a monster. I'll only hurt you... I still want you though... Guess im spoiled.

Yet like I said, love has it's ways.

I wonder how it was in NY for you. I grew up isolated, then traveled to fast... I should have told you more about me sooner, but i was afraid to scare you off. I don't have many friends, never had. I've killed a lot of people, and done a bunch of stupid things.

I'm not saying this to upset you or scare you. I just want you to know...me. There's more, a lot more. I lied about my name, my hair, i kept things from you I shouldn't have, like the locket that isn't mine.... Don't let me discourage you. I just had to let you know. Had to tell someone before I went mad. I told you, because i have trust issues, but you've come really close to some i trust all the way. I love you Owen Mueller.

Love Jami Flutter.

[Jami Futter]

diary

Why the heck did HE come here? I hate him with all my soul! AND petunias!
He had come here and stabbed me! Poor Owen, I hope he is okay... Henry's lies i think got to him, i really hope OWen believes me int he fact they werent true. I dont want hose fake images in his head.

Everything was fine until he showed up, i was happily loving OWen and starting to 'embrace who i am' as richard might say.

When This wound heals up im not going to look for Henry. Nope. Best I never see him. Might as well leave! Best way to avoid him. I had already been thinking about it, now i just have a reason.

from the faerie that's pissed
Jami

[Jami Futter]

in jamis room she has her suitcase out in front of her bed now and on top are a bloody dress, and two blood stain shirts

[Jami Futter]

Diary:

That's it I'm going... Maybe Owen can find my Diary and read this. ill tear it out so it's easier to find
(next page)

Dear Owen,
I bet you hate me. The door, sorry about that. I'm sorry for Henry too. I can't believe he came here. Just remember those things he said weren't true. Yes he was my Fiance at one point but, he hurt me and it was over. If you read earlier in my diary you can see I wanted to tell you things before...
Yes I have killed someone (its was an accident by the way), and petunia even more, but I hope it wont effect your feelings for me. Cause I still love you Owen.

I'll be back,

Love Jami


It was left neatly on her bed with the note sticking out of the diary

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